Wednesday, June 28, 2006
I'm pretty depressed about it. I mean I really do think that there are some issues and it's really unfair. but what can I do about it. Sometimes you just get so fed up, just because you aren't all sweet, popular, you lose out a lot. it's such a terrible feeling. I'm in quite a bad mood today. hai, and I don't even know why. I reduce in weight, si I guess that's good. Things seem to pass by very slowly today. My love life is terrible. All in all, my life sucks as it is.
6:28 AM
Monday, June 19, 2006
the concert was pretty smooth-sailing. I was told that I was frowning on stage. haii. I left early afterwards and didn't get to bid seniors farewell. I'm so sad and remorseful. They taught us a lot and though I'm not that close to them but it still hurts all the same. haii, things will never be the same. Wish them all the best. See, now tears are welling up already. Though I always make them angry, but...but..I don't know, but I'm really sad. Feeling so silly. Sometimes when they scold you, you feel like ur boiling up. but now when there's no one to scold you, it's worse tham being scolded...
7:57 AM
Friday, June 09, 2006
It's almost been 2 weeks and I haven't start revising or anything. [ic] I guess with the FOY and balloon hat festival and many other band practises, math olympia, oral and sutffs, I barely have enough time for myself. I also haven't pack my messy room =p Today was a total disaster, well for swimming that is. My instructor said that I have gained weight. sobs, now I have to lose weight again. Then, I kept knocking into people with my stupid backstroke and I kept getting water in my face and nose. Sidestroke wasn't any better 'cos I barely had the energy to push myself against the current. I was so tired that I nearly fell asleep in the cubicle and I was so groogy that I went into the place where we enter the swimming complex instead of the exit place. Luckily no one saw me. But, at least I didn't fail the timing for the 2 lengths of breaststroke, still maintain at round 3.18. PheW! I'm gonna go camp in school for band, 2 nites 3 days. Guess what? We sleeping at 12am and waking up at 6.45 lyketad, I mean I can't possibly survive and we're gonna do physical training, I definitely don't like the sound of that. But hopefully can lose a bit of weight.
~despo&& signing off----
8:17 PM
have you ever thought of how wonderful it would be if there was world peace and that no evil ever reigned in life? People could just leave a huge sum of money lying around and no one would even think of touching it. Yarh, in my dreams that would happen. But what hurts me most is the word "trust". There were times when I will just break down and think that why? Why, when I believe in that person yet she harmed me. I once naiively thought...or put it as didn't even gave the thought of like guarding against others. I keep thinking that no one will harm or sabotage me yet was I ever wrong. When someone tell you that others have an ill-intention against you, you just won't believe them. However, when it really happen, you'll just find an excuse to escape reality. Though I've suffered a lot of times, but I'll still keep my hopes up, 'cos if I lost the whole morale/*yi nian (sorry, i've forgotten what the word is) there will be no meaning in my life anymore.
6:04 AM
